From the Archive: An Email

**This is an email I received from a ‘fan’ a couple of years back and thought I would post it; it helps me to remember that I am desirable, and if it helps just one other larger lady realise it too, then it would make me a very happy pleased thing! **

“First, and the most important, you have a brain.  Intelligent women are always attractive; men like a woman who can argue with them on an equal level (some even like a woman to be able to talk down to them!).  Intelligence is an aphrodisiac.  Also the brain is the biggest and most powerful sex organ in the body.  So you are streets ahead of all those fluffy bimbos.

Second you are shy. God love us, but men love shy women.  It must be to do with your vulnerability, it appeals to the masculine genes.  It’s not that you are open to abuse but that you are willing to be shown what guys like and boy do they like to show you what they like!!  Of course half the time it’s nothing you want but the other half you can take and mould as you wish.  Despite everything you read or hear we are putty in your hands!

Already you are a sex kitten and we haven’t even touched your body………………..what a divine thought!

Now your body. Where to start. Obvious place your big breasts.  Despite some proclaiming that more than a handful is a waste most men are ‘tit’ men, we like them big, we like to carress them, to suckle on them and generally to enjoy there look and feel. Plus points to you again.

Next your thighs.  Leg men claim that they love slim legs that go on forever, phooey!  When a man settles down (or is forced) between a woman’s thighs to do what a good man should (worship her epicentre with his mouth and his tongue), does he want the possibility of a bone grinding on his face?  Of course not, what he wants is a well padded thigh where he can rest his head as he pleasures his lady (in some cases he also likes the idea if that if the woman feels like it she can damn near crush him….a thought that could have him cumming quicker than you wish, lol).  More plus points to you.

Your bottom. What is there to say about your bottom?  Lots but it is easiest expressed thus. Men like big bottoms.  Ask an honest man about what constitutes and oversized bottom he will tell you that there ain’t no thing as  a booty that is too big.  We love them, every inch.  More plus points.

Your epicentre (your vagina, your pussy, your cunt, whatever you call it depending on where you arousal is at that particular moment) is beautiful  I don’t even have to look, it is divine.  Fat, skinny, black or white, they are all beautiful.  The ugly one does not exist.

Your tummy, your oh so lovely belly.  So, your man has just driven you wild with his friendly attack on your epicentre, you are both exhausted.  Does he want to rest his head on a hard washboard?  No, a nice, soft, pillowy belly is perfect.  Lying there inches from your aromatic epicentre, the most comfortable place on the planet at that time.  Close enough your  aroma fills his nostrils, close enough you can lay your hands on his head and, if you wish, encourage him to start again. You win again.”

Thank you Jim .. I can’t tell you how lovely it was to receive that .. and it helps me to understand a little why I have fans .. and hope for the future ..!


Watching Men Wank


OK, so one of the meme’s I thought I would take part in this year on the blog is ‘Masturbation Monday’.  If you that know me already, you probably know that watching a man jack off is a bit of a kink of mine.  Why? I really don’t know but I thought I would try to explain it a little here in case it helps me unearth some deeply hidden something or other that helps me understand!

I suppose on the surface, the thought of a guy being so turned on by me that he has to beat the Bishop is simply enough for me. I have been treated so unkindly in the past and told that no one would ever fancy me or want to fuck me, that I suppose it’s still a little of a surprise when someone does.  These days, watching a guy choking his chicken is a lot easier than it used to be!  When I first came online, it was done for sure, but guys seemed a lot more reserved than they seem to be now!

I suppose the one this working against me is that I am not a fan of reciprocation.  I mean yes, at some point I will flick my bean whilst remembering the session, but I tend to want to pay 100% attention in real time and soak it all in .. and not be worrying about what I look like on cam.  This is why I will always say that I don’t do it and will understand if they no longer want to but if they still want to perform a five finger shuffle and let me watch, then they are more than welcome to, and a fair amount do – we are a generation of exhibitionists you know!

I also like receiving videos; I once ran a little challenge called #WankforLou which entailed guys basically having a wank in my name and letting me know about it so that I could ‘count’ it – my aim was 1 million but due to various reasons I had to stop. Maybe I should start it up again, what do you think?

I think one of the reasons I like it is that I can see the affect of the stimulation on a cock.  I am also well know for my love of seeing a flaccid cock get hard on cam and will always ask a guy if that’s possible.  When giving a handjob or watching someone jerkin the gerkin, you can see how hard his cock gets, feel it pulsating, feel the heat running through the shaft and then when he cums, I love to sit and watch it.  A twitchy cock is one of my most favourite sights.

I think this stems from a time when I was much younger – too young really, when a boy I was at school with took me into an empty classroom and asked me to hold his willy for him in exchange for some (oh so romantic and not at all cliched) chocolate.  I remember at the time thinking how warm and hard it was .. and HUGE. I think it was the first I had seen and certainly the first erection I had been around.

I often wonder now actually if he was as well endowed as I thought back then .. either way I’m kind of ashamed to say that I have often fantasised about meeting up with him at the school reunion and getting to see for myself.  We have one this year in July.  Maybe I’ll get lucky?

So there we are. If you didn’t know already, now you know what my ‘thing’ is and can email or tweet me immediately offering to go on cam for me anytime, and I will be all coy and tell you maybe one day, but secretly will be trying to work out when I can get some privacy in this mad house so that I can watch you … and again … and again … and again .. Please?!


Week #122